Tuesday, March 5, 2013

Healthy eating

Confession time:

I've never heard of healthy eating until I came back to Malaysia in 2011. itupun lepas abang aku duk bising aku exercise tapi overweight gak. nak jadi cerita, aku ni compulsive exerciser. pagi 2 jam, petang 2 jam. to make matter worse, aku ni emotional eater. Aku ada problem binge eating. Tu pasal tak turun- turun. Asyik gunakan makanan sebagai "reward" and "pusishment". Hmmm, kalau tengok hidup dulu, rasa berterabur giler. siap diet 3 hari makan apple, minum plain water je. Kau bayang hardcore aku nak kurus macamana. Masuk hari ke-3, malam tu aku tak boleh tidur nyenyak. I was shaking all night, and as soon as I woke up, I headed straight to the kitchen and ate a full plate of rice. turun 2 kg, tapi lepas tu naik balik mendadak 3 kg. haha, padan muka.

sebab tu sekarang kalau ada orang tanya aku pasal diet terbaik, terus aku cakap, lupakanlah diet tak makan nasi ke, diet atkins ke, diet high protein ke. just eat healthy. eat healthy ni pulak bukannya tak boleh langsung makan manis, gulai. Cuma jaga portion and tak perlu makan dunkin donut tu hari-hari. Ni masalah orang Malaysia, makan nasi berpinggan-pinggan, pastu bila nak kurus je, tinggal nasi. pastu duk agungkan sangat produk herbalife, alpha lipid bagai. 

konsep aku, 80% healthy eating, 20% indulgence. takkan pergi kenduri orang nak request brown rice, ayam bakar lak kan? so pandai-pandailah. haha. jangan sampai orang kecil hati kita tak makan kat majlis diorang sudah la.There’s a difference between eating a healthy diet and eating a “perfect” diet, and if you are spending your entire life stressing over what, when, or where to eat for optimal health, it could be doing more harm than good.

Monday, March 4, 2013

My Weight Loss Story

If you would have known me 5 yrs ago I was totally a different person than I am today. I grew up overweight. When you can’t remember a time when you weren’t, being fat is a part of your identity. There was a part of me that believed that weight loss was impossible. Yes, I wanted to be fit, I wanted a perfect body like any other girls, but I had no drive, I had no motivation at all. To make matters worse, i used “asthma” as an excuse for not working out.

One day I woke up, feeling gutted about the way I’ve been treating myself, feeling sorry for all the insults people have thrown at me yet not doing anything about it. And that is how I get started. Losing weight ain’t easy. I remembered the first time I get off from that couch and decided to go for a jog. I couldn’t last more than 5 minutes, or so i thought. But I pushed myself. Now, I can run/jog 5 laps non stop. and I do not regret all the junk foods that I’ve given up before. i am so much healthier without them. Those words in my mind telling me that I can’t? those are liars.

I can now do many things I thought I could never have done before. You can lose weight. No matter how messed up your metabolism (more on that later), no matter how long you’ve been overweight, it is possible.

It’s been a year since I made a lifestyle change and eating healthier, and I haven’t looked back. I am content with where I am now, but I want to strive for more. It’s the ability to inspire and educate others that motivates me the most to keep going no matter how hard it can get.

“It’s not about perfect. it’s about effort. and when you bring that effort every single day, that’s where transformation happens. that’s how change occurs”

p/s: ingat nak sambung blogging balik hehe 

Sunday, December 23, 2012


hey guys. duh it's been so long since I last updated my blog. seriously I didn't know where to start. just to let you know, if you noticed, I talked about losing some weight and being healthy, and I've made it yeay! so for a starter, here's my facebook page, this is where I share my experience and knowledge about how to lead a healthy lifestyle :)

FitNinja, ChickWarriors

Friday, May 4, 2012


sick of becoming your puppet. sick of how I would always back you up even when I know you would not do the same thing for me. sick of having to pretend that everything is okay when it's not. sick of having to show my brightest smile when I feel like screaming to your face. Just you. I've always been impressed of what you can do. always. hati biar bersih luar dalam. kalau sekadar luar je, nampak baik, takde guna jugak. mind my word. satu hari, Allah nak tunjuk, He will. I've seen one. oops no, multiple that by God knows how many.I'm so sick of your lies

Friday, April 13, 2012

mentally and physicall tired

it's hard to be in this state of mind. in a way, i'm glad i've managed to slowly find my way back but on the other hand, training and clean diet drained me. seriously. they do. lots of people can go to the gym, but what it takes to constantly watch over your food intake, that is a huge work. to watch your friends eating so many delicious food while you stuck at eating only soup, grilled chicken, brown rice. of course as time goes on, i'll start complaining. not that I am not aware this is my choice. the biggest problem is motivation. 

sometimes i cant help but to feel offended whenever my friends questioned my choice of food. i mean, when you eat McD or ayam goreng kfc ke, pisang goreng ke, I say nothing. but when it comes to me, choosing healthy food, like salads then all jaws dropped. if you don't want to respect my choice of food, please, at least don't make fun of them. of me. i swear some people, they just lack of empathy, I feel like punching myself in the face. yes, myself. I am trying very hard to get into the best shape as to qualify for the personal trainer certificate. seriously, who wanna train with a personal trainer that is overweight, or doesn't take his/her own advice? 

then, it's back to home. i love being at home. but, being at home means i won't do my assignments, just sitting at the corner of the living room, staring at my laptop for hours, knowing that there's no good in stalking people's facebook, so all I can do is keep refreshing the newsfeed and hoping for some interesting status to pop out so i can click the button the"LIKE". yeah, that's pretty much how life is at home. I don't even bother to hang out with friends, let alone to go shopping at alamanda, the cats keep me company.

i'm just emotionally and physically tired but i was told by the trainer that the clean diet needs to be continued for at least another 4 months. and dammit, i thought i'm just doing it for 3 months. the result? yes, i can see it but apparently when i look at the mirror, i feel that whatever i'm doing right now is not enough. how do u look at the mirror and seeing yourself as skinny as your sisters? knowing the fact that i can never be skinny, that is why i choose over a strong physique. so bodybuilding it is. 

I'm never good enough for anyone, kan? i thought so. signing off now. in need of cats for my stress therapy session. at least, i would not be judged :D


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